how creepy my lights are flickering, lololol uh yeah reading some wuthering heights waiting for david to be done with dinner, i might get electrocuted since the power is acting weird, we're getting a storm, wooooo.

I guess I'm back to using livejournal, I missed it a little bit. Myspace I have not missed since the day I deleted it. GOODBYE DRAMA since like 3-4 months, amazing.

dropping my boyfriend off at the airport was one of the saddest/hardest moments ever. I had an amazing past three weeks. I can't wait until december<3



SCHOOL STARTS IN LIKE A WEEK UGH

alright so it’s monday night, FINALLY. Tomorrow I wake up at five fifteen head out of here around six am and then go to orlando airport! omg I’m so happy and excited. No computer for like a week except stickam. I will probably be live once or twice. AHHHHHHHHH i’m really really happy, sorry. hahahahaa. <3

anyone?


if you have one tell meeeeeeeeee (:

we spend so much time chasing that initial feeling that we forget what made us feel that way in the first place. I think that's why commitment is hard for a lot of people. Instead of appreciating what you have there's always something better. That feeling of excitement from the chase of that feeling we get from an initial moment of love and lust. Is it worth it? Is a temporary feeling, worth losing out on being truly happy, with one person. I guess that's up to you to decide.

right now, I don't even really feel like talking to you, ugh.

July 28th, let's do it for real this time (:



Camp this week finally after a lot of weeks without it, homework is almost finished! then extended essay time haha

im thinking about deleting my twitter
then I will only have lj and stickam


I want to waste less time on useless websites lol

yeah, wuthering heights, currently on chapter 18, hoping to finish today and do the project shit tomorroooowww.

I'm feeling really good about this, camp this week hopefully and getting some school work done because I really need to AHHHHHH.
Next week will be the BEST week of summer for sure, ugh I can't wait.  I always write about how much school work I have to do and I'm sitting here writing on lj instead of actually doing it, hahahahaha, oh well.
I have everything laid out on my bed, I will accomplish something today! Extended essay is patiently waiting for me to start writing and researching lol. dads tonight for dinner, should be interesting. 
I wonder if people actually read my livejournals, they havent been very interesting lately, well some of them but mostly I havent been very inspired, maybe soon I'll find something FANTASTIC to write haha (;

I definitely have a wuthering heights weekend in store for me, ugh fer sure lol
+ photobook most likely, extended essay shit hopefully next week I can start.
Wuthering Heights first though, someone remind me why I took IB
I  have all this work and basically zero motivation to do it
50 blank photobook pages that need to be filled with my handwritten ideas good god HELP HELP HELP LOL



almost ten days!

I thought dreams were supposed to reveal the future, or is this a cycle where in the end the past comes back to merge with the future?

the hours. AMAZING. such a good fucking movie. if you have not seen it, rent it. you wont regret it. nicole kidman is amazing.
I just wanna quote the end of the movie because really it's so powerful and if you've seen it or watch it, you'll understand why.

"To look life in the face. Always, to look life in the face. And, to know it. For what it is. At last, to know it. To love it, for what it is. And then...to put it away."


that is the most beautiful honest real thing I've ever heard, I have never fell in love with a line like I have with this one.

world all built up in our minds and then it all comes crashing down.


happy thirteen days, ha.
I love worrying about school work
I love fighting on the phone
I love crying
I love you being mad
I love being mad
I love when you tell me how shitty I am




even though I love all these things, I still love you, because I see the bigger picture, all the better things that take away from the bad things, I wish sometimes, you could see them too.

to read during my hw breaks hahaha, PASSED MY IB TESTS! yayayyyyy. only four more to go lol. 15 days.

I really cannot wait. [:



ugh IB SCORES TOMORROW ! idk what to think I'm really nervous, lol
school work all this week, blaahhhhh ):

what would I declare independence from? My past. I would declare independence from every bad thing I've done or that has been done to me. Forgiveness is the key to freedom. If you can't forgive others, and you can't forgive yourself, you have nothing but pain and bitterness. Where is the freedom in that?

add me

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todays agenda
re-do extended essay stuff
finish this book/start another one
complete "the stranger"project
possibly work on photobook or start wuthering heights
I am trying not to let this workload intimidate me!